#celebrating #dailiness

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I love the idea over on The Habit of Being to celebrate the ‘dailiness’ in our lives this 2015. It spoke so much to my heart. So much.

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I’ve decided to participate and I look forward to appreciating the mundane much more this year. Join me… join us, will you?

Click on the  icons at the top of the blog to follow me on Twitter or Facebook– or find everyone participating by using the hashtag #celebratingdailiness :)

Happy 2015!

YES!!!

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8 years ago today, I was on my way up to the Divine Mercy Shrine with my whole family and my fiancee to get our brand-spankin-new engagement blessed. It was a day, a great gush of memories, I will always, always treasure. Maybe it’s the  baby I just had five weeks ago, or maybe I’m just feeling sentimental but I looked through my journals and realized I didn’t have an entry about this wonderful time.  So I decided to immortalize my memories forever on the world wide web. Actually, it’s just a heck of a lot easier to type than write by hand these days!

Hey, you don’t have to keep reading if your looking for sarcastic dry humor, because this could get a wee bit sappy.

8 years ago yesterday, January 5th 2007 was a really rainy day in New York. I was packing to head back to wrap up my final senior semester of college at Franciscan University. Christmas break was coming to an end, but I was really eager to get back to see my wonderful, wonderful, gosh-I-can’t-wait-to-marry-him boyfriend, Tom. Tom who lived 7 hours away in the amazing city of Pittsburgh, PA.

Rainy day, right? So naturally since I wasn’t going anywhere special or seeing any one other than my family, I sat around in my sweats and my oversized Columbia jacket, unshowered, listening to the Phantom of the Opera soundtrack and simultaneously checking my e-mail  for the majority of the day.

I had reached out to Tom a couple times to but his phone kept going to voicemail. Which was odd. Eventually he called me back, and told me he was in the mall returning something from Christmas. He’d call me back later when he was done.

I popped on the tv in my parent’s basement and curled up on the couch with my pj’s and unshowered self when Mom stuck her head in asking if I wanted to go with her to adoration, then meet up with Dad and my sisters (like usual on Fridays) at Village Pizza. I really didn’t want to get dressed, and I remember actually debating if I should go or not. Honestly, I just wanted to talk on the phone with Tom…..eh what the heck. I went. I only upgraded my pj pants to yoga pants, kept the messy bun, make-up less, shower-less self in the super baggy hoodie and headed out with Mom. After all, I really didn’t care who I saw in this town. I had no one I needed to impress. Tom wasn’t here.

After holy hour, Mom and my sisters got ourselves a booth at Village pizza and we waited for Dad who was running late. It was pouring rain outside. Of course, because I was at the table, the conversation turned to wedding ‘one days’ and I told my Mom about a picture I had seen of a chapel length veil and oooo how I loved that veil, and I want a veil like that someday and…

“Annemarie!” She cut me off, almost exasperated, “You’re not even engaged! You’re not getting married anytime soon…”

Why was everyone still surprised to hear me talk like that though? I mean I only had been collecting wedding magazines since I was a freshman, and designing my wedding invitations since I was….like 12. And journaling about how I never wanted a honeymoon, just a homestead like the Waltons, and 7 kids and a wedding in a cotton dress with a black-eyed-susan crown…since I was like 10.  (I totally have the journals–and dress sketches– to prove it. What a hippie) Regardless, I knew I wanted to be- was called to be- a bride, a wife, since…well… since as long as I could remember. Nothing was more convicted in my heart, brought me more peace, than the thought of marriage. Especially to this guy, Tom, who I knew the Lord had led me to. (Another story, another day)

So there we were, waiting for Dad who finally bustled in all wet with his umbrella. He came up to the table and leaned over to me, asking me in a hurried way to quick run out to the Volvo for him. Because he had left something for my sister Katie, who was also heading back to college, on the passenger seat. He must have seen the hesitancy in me because of all the rain, because he insisted “Can you just do that for me?” I knew he needed to place the pizza order, so I got up, no umbrella, and jogged to the parking lot.

It was dark, and wet but the street was lined with beautiful white Christmas lights still. I made it to the Volvo and dove inside the drivers side to stay dry while I searched for Katie’s gift or whatever it was. Nothing was on the passenger seat. I checked under the seat if it fell, nothing. Nothing in the visor, or the glove compartment. Checked the driver’s visor and found an envelope. With Tom’s handwriting all over it. Huh?

I opened up the envelope and immediately the words “be my bride” “marry me” leapt out at me from the dozens of scribbles filling up the page. My heart did somersaults and I quickly turned around and looked in the back trunk of the car where I saw duffel bags. Tom’s duffel bags. I was sweating. Crap, I realized, I wasn’t wearing any deodorant either! In a matter of seconds, everything clicked in my head what was happening and by the time my body does what it normally does when I’m surprised—shake uncontrollably– guess who was standing outside my car window.

Tom, with an umbrella (smart guy) was motioning to me to open the door and get out. Tears were rolling down my cheeks, partly because I couldn’t believe I blew the surprise too soon and partly because I was totally stunned…I got out and all he said was

“Hey.”

“hhhhiiiiii” I whimpered

He was smiling so much, and I continued whimpering and waving the envelope

“What are you doing here? How did you get here? What are you doing? I thought you were at the mall.”

He told me he just came to drive me back to school. I looked at him like ‘yeah. right.’

“Let’s take a walk.” He was SO calm, so….rehearsed!

“A walk?” I started blubbering, ” But it’s raining!” But he took my arm and led me down the sidewalk back towards Village pizza. We got to the corner crosswalk and he pushed the button. We waited and then, he turned around, faced me and put both his hands on my shoulders.

All I remember him saying is “You know I love you.” and I thought “No. Not now! I’m in my sweats! I haven’t showered! I have no make up on! I am SO GROSS! WHYYYY”

Then, he knelt down on that sopping wet sidewalk, and I kept shaking like a leaf and blubbering. Actually I was crying so much, I said “What? You have to say that again, I’m never going to remember this, because I just can’t believe this is happening” Cars at the stop light were honking. He was crying. I was crying. I was shaking, he wrapped me so tight in his coat to stop me from shaking, I had to explain, through blubbering that I wasn’t cold just so, so, so, shocked. So caught off guard. SO HAPPY!

After the elation, and excited chattering that happens afterwards— when he told me how he’d been traveling over 9 hours to get to NY on time via busses and trains and my Dad picking him up at the station…. he stepped back, reached into his jacket pocket and said,

“So do you wanna  see the ring or what?”

Because he kept the ring in his pocket, per his friend’s advice “ You always want the girl to say yes to you, not the ring”  But who cared about the ring at this point? The love of my life was going to marry me! I didn’t care if it was a rubber band!!! I was going to be Mrs. Tom Thimons!!!

Of course, the ring made me cry even more. I love, love, loved it. A solitaire round diamond, set high in yellow gold. Classic, and old fashioned. Perfect. Just like him.

So that’s how it went, and we walked back into Village Pizza where I shakingly presented my rock to my family, including other relatives who showed up in the interim for an impromptu celebration. My parents were busting open a bottle of wine, and the owner of the restaurant offered his congrats, hugs and kisses from everyone all around….and I was still in my sweats. Oy. So much for being low on the radar that day.

What a day. What a totally exhilarating feeling and unbelievable moment. How much I praised God, and still praise Him constantly. And still turn to Tom and say,

“Thank you SO MUCH for asking me to marry you!!”

and he always answers me the exact same way,

“Thank YOU for saying ‘yes‘.”

My ring!

My ring!

At the Divine Mercy Shrine, where we consecrated our engagement the day after he proposed.

At the Divine Mercy Shrine, where we consecrated our engagement the day after he proposed.

With my sister & maid of honor

With my sister & maid of honor

Just so, so, happy.

Just so, so, happy.

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My knight in shining armor.

My knight in shining armor.

Re-creating the moment

Re-creating the moment

Blessed.

Best (and last) Christmas Break ever!

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The corner where he proposed 11 months earlier….

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Great food. Great Memories.

Great food. Great Memories.

A Bowl Full of Jelly

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Need some holiday cheer? Here’s my “bowl full of jelly” for you, courtesy of my postpartum brain. Lucky, lucky, you.

Let me tell you a true story. It goes like this:

Three weeks ago it was Black Friday. And I had a baby, after eating a ginormous breakfast, which was preceded by an even more ginormous Thanksgiving dinner. I looked like I swallowed the turkey whole. And my belly was stretched to the limit. I had told Tom there was no more room left, I felt like my skin was going to split in half. Funny enough, hours before I delivered one of my lovely stretch marks indeed cracked and started to bleed. Ah, what fun.

Sidenote: Where have I been since I last posted on October 6?! On bed rest, barely able to walk with a 10mm kidney stone, homeschooling, doctors visits,two birthdays,then surgery to remove the stone, then pre-term labor scare/8 day hospital stay, doctors visits, , then recovery on the couch again, homeschooling, doctors visits, Thanksgiving, Black Friday shopping, labor, delivery, recovery on couch again, and a partridge in a pear tree.

So I had the baby, my fourth baby! It was fast and furious (lol, sorry to all in the room!) but amazing. Baby boy is an angel, just so easy. Either that or I’m just super lazy this time around. Siblings are doing great, Dad is a freaking SUPER HERO,  Grandparents and Aunties are wonderfully helpful… I’m getting sleep and all…but well, um, I think part of my brain died during this whole process. Like the part of the brain that handles mental sharpness, or awareness, or logic, or even proper parts of speech. Gone.

I suspected something was amiss at the one week pediatric visit. Tom and I shuffled in with our diaper bags, stroller, car seat, coats, coffees and plopped down to wait for the doctor to come in. The nurse asked me to get the baby out to be weighed, and then she attempted to fill out paperwork…asking me all sorts of questions WHILE I WAS DOING SOMETHING ELSE. I mean seriously. I was struggling enough trying to focus on how to secure these darn diapers that I forgot were the size of croutons, let alone trying to field her questions. I mean, my brain space just died lady.

So when she asked me “And who delivered the baby?”

and I looked up at her with an annoyed look as if what? What did she think? Tom delivered the baby?

I quite rudely replied ” Um. I did.”

I was seriously taken aback when she started to laugh, as did Tom and she told me “Oh your a funny one.”

That’s when it hit me that something wasn’t right in my normally normal brain. And then I felt ridiculously bad for being so rude to the nurse, when I was actually the dumbo.

Later that week, as I kept requesting we get ‘feetprints’ of the baby for his memory book to which my Dad had to keep correcting me, “footprints. Foot. Prints” and still later when I couldn’t remember the names of my own kids…I knew I wasn’t the sharpest drawer in the knife no more. (it’s a joke, don’t worry)

So, aware of this great change I probably should have kept my mouth shut when we were in the grocery store last Sunday.

When we were walking out of the store, after a nice little visit with Santa and his elves, we passed through the candy section. The deliriously enormous candy and chocolate section of our neat little local family owned grocery store. It was decked out to the nines with sugar plum fairies and gingerbread galore. Piles of confectionary concoctions and chocolate everything. Among which were stacks of huge molded Santas made out of chocolate.

To which I saw from afar and toting a kid on each hand shouted way too conspicuously and pointed,

“Look guys! Chocolate Santa!!”

And it was then that I noticed the nice, big, black man, standing about 5 inches to the left of the display. Which didn’t help my pointing because it was pretty hard to determine what the heck I was so excited about.

Also did not help that he and I made eye contact, and I pursed my lips together and scurried out the door.

At least he didn’t have a red hat on. Now that would have been awkward.

 

Have a Happy Christmas, from our family to yours! May your days be merry and bright! And may all your Santas be….. chocolate ones!

 

 

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Think About These Things

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Sunday’s readings really brought a lot of peace to my heart. I was becoming frazzled and confused with the state of everything in our world today: beheadings, bombings, Ebola, Ferguson, ISIS…. every time I got on Twitter some other news source had another shocking, terrible, the-world-is-ending calamity. And then we had the readings yesterday in Mass. St. Paul seemed to have dealt with this kind of demon before, this anxiety dragon, this depressing negativity, this sky-is-falling mentality. Suddenly, a reading which we’ve all heard so often

” Have no anxiety at all but in everything, with prayer and thanksgiving make your petition known to God…” (Phillipians 4:6)

Suddenly these lines leapt out at me more earnest than ever before:

“Whatever is true, Whatever is honorable, whatever is just, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is gracious, if there is any excellence and if there is anything worthy of praise, THINK ABOUT THESE THINGS.” (Phillipians  4:7-8)

 

Wow, I thought. Look at that. St. Paul just lays it out, give us the prescription what we should be occupying our thoughts with. That’s amazing! And if that’s what Saint Paul’s advice is, then I’m going to take it… because how can you argue with that advice? You can’t. Guess what? The world is always going to be a chaotic mess. Always. There’s Ebola now, but there was the Bird Flu then, and there was the Swine Flu… and Anthrax, and somehow we all kept moving on. There is violence in the Middle East, and there was the Holocaust, there was 9-11…evil always was, yet light always conquers. And I shall choose think about those things instead.

A visual aid (mostly for myself, but for all of you too!)

Whatever is TRUE

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Whatever is HONORABLE

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Whatever is JUST

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Meriam Ibrahim arrives safely in the USA after being held captive and sentenced to death for her Christian faith

Whatever is PURE

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Whatever is LOVELY

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Mom denies chemotherapy to treat bone cancer to save the life of her unborn daughter

Whatever is GRACIOUS

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If there is any EXCELLENCE

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Saint John Paul II forgives his attempted assasinator

If there is anything WORTHY OF PRAISE

Christ on the Cross by Diego Velazquez, 1632

Think about these things.

-Saint Paul

 

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Fall Reminds Me of Kevin

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This time of year always makes me remember being a senior in college and participating in Nursing Home Ministry.  It was something that Tom and I did with a group of other students from Franciscan University.  Particularly, I remember Kevin, possibly the most moving experience during my time there! I had written this story back on break during 2007, it’s one of my favorite memories and it still brings tears to my eyes to recall it.

I hope you enjoy:

I met him one fall afternoon in my senior year of college. He was tall, handsome and quiet. I could tell before I met him that Kevin was a gentle man. He sat in the same chair, in front of the same window, each day. The look on his face was undistinguishable, neither bored nor interested. Every day he wore a blue sweatsuit with matching blue slippers and white baseball socks. It was clear that Kevin was much younger than everyone else at the nursing home. His dark skin was still taut and smooth and his mustache was neatly trimmed and devoid of white hairs.

It was obvious by the look in his eyes that he was alert. You read about people with sparkle in their eyes, but I never actually met someone who did until I met him. His eyes seemed outgoing and talkative, if one can give eyes a personality. They needed to have personality though, because he could barely talk and thus chose not to.  At first this saddened me but it also piqued my curiosity about this man. Communication is what draws together individuals and forms relationships. Without relationships, life would be a depressing cloister of emotion . The nurses didn’t seem as troubled in this matter as I was. They said Kevin liked to sit there alone. He had been in an accident, and not spoken a word for years.

One day, I sat with him in those waxy nursing home chairs and asked simple yes or no questions. “Are you having a good day?” “Was lunch good?”  “Are you excited about bingo night?”  Slowly, he would shake his head according to what he felt as his large hands held onto the arms of his seat. When I asked him if he liked the Beatles, he nodded his head a definite yes. Others in the home said they liked the Beatles, so I decided next time to bring in a Beatles CD and picture book  for a change in activity.

 

When that day came I put on the disc and sat beside Kevin with the picture book in my lap. He was the only one in the room who was cognitive enough to look through it. That was the thing. He seemed perfectly fine. I knew that there had to be something deeper, something undiscovered within this man.  I started to flip through the Beatles book, pointing to members of the band and naming them. Slowly I talked about the instruments in the pictures and songs they wrote. All through our telepathic conversation his eyes would let me know if he was enjoying the topic or ready for me to turn the page.

 

On our third time through the book, I tried to ask him something aside from our usual yes or no questions. I pointed to a picture of the drummer for the Beatles and asked him who it was. He immediately stopped smacking his lips together as he usually did repetitively, and instead moved his lips slowly up and down, as if he was trying to say something. I stared at him, aware that his eyes were quickly darting between the picture and me. Through his brown eyes which stared unfaltering into mine, he seemed to be screaming “give me one more minute and I’ll say it!” After a long silence, he replied confidently “Ringo Starr.” He was completely right.  It was such joy to finally hear the sound of his voice! Excited by this tiny accomplishment we moved on to other pictures; I would point and he would tell me who it was. Each time he was right.

Despite the fact that the majority of our time conversing was silent, those visits were one of the best parts of my week.  It was a sweet conversation of learning; having him teach me to be paitient and me teaching him to open up. Sometimes I wondered if he was answering my questions to be polite but really wanted me to stop. I took comfort when I asked him if I talked too much. He looked at me with those intense dark eyes, began the lip motion and told me “no”. So our conversations continued each week when I would go to the nursing home with a group of students from the university.  Kevin was just trapped within himself. He understood, talked, and listened really well.

The moment I will never forget, is the day I  brought my Earth, Wind and Fire CD in.  I knew it was his favorite band and I wanted to surprise him to see how he would react. Disco jazz took over the living room at the nursing home and you could see him get happier. He started snapping his fingers and tapping his foot, then he turned to me and said  “I’m listening to the music!”. That was the second time he had spoken to me without being asked a question.  I smiled at him and we sat next to each other in our usual chairs, in front of the same window, just enjoying the music. Whenever I hear that album, I am reminded of how happy he was in that moment. He would name each of the songs as they came on, sometimes even before the vocalist started singing. You could tell he was genuinely happy. His inner self seemed to delight in the beat of the melody. After a while of listening, I asked him the usual questions, “How was your day?” “Are you happy?” “Did anybody come to visit this week?” That time, when I asked him what the best part of his day was and after waiting for the typical two minutes he responded, “Your visit”.  Immediately I felt a lump form in my throat. Guilt swept over me for not coming to visit more often , I didn’t have many excuses.

It was understandable that he was often overlooked. After all it appeared to everyone, even myself, that he couldn’t talk. The staff said they hadn’t heard him say a word in years.  It was devastating to think that he was there all day long, left alone to sit in his nursing home chair and converse inwardly with himself. I still can’t bear to remember that window with him in front of it, in the same blue sweatsuit, wearing that blank expression on his face.  Yet, I am glad I will never forget what a gift it was to be able to pause in that moment and see the happiness reflected in his eyes and the tap of his foot. Watching him enjoy the music that day made me forget about all my anxieties. The beauty of the moment that we were sharing had changed me.

Sometimes silence is a pathway to the most meaningful conversations of our lives. Who we are when we are silent or alone is never a facade but the truth of our being. I am so grateful and forever moved. Somehow sitting in that stiff, waxy nursing home chair, listening to the jazz, just watching Kevin become happy made me understand the immeasurable joy that can come from companionship, with or without words.

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Five Favorites {Preggo Edition}

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It wouldn’t be a true Preggo edition post if it didn’t come out late, right? So yes, behind the ball in joining 5 Favorites this week but here’s what I’ve got for all you ladies out there with buns in the oven:

Ok, it actually tastes pretty good. The raspberry stuff. It's a magnesium supplement which most of us are not getting nearly enough of, which helps you (as the label states) balance your stress, and also reduces muscles spasms or cramping. Since I've been getting Charley horses like crazy... this stuff really seems to help a lot!

Ok, it actually tastes pretty good. The raspberry stuff. It’s a magnesium supplement which most of us are not getting nearly enough of, which helps you (as the label states) balance your stress, and also reduces muscles spasms or cramping. Since I’ve been getting Charley horses like crazy… this stuff really seems to help a lot! However if you are pregnant and very naturally calm, and not experiencing any muscles spasms then you probably don’t need this. You lucky dog, you.

 

Spinning Babies!! If you haven't been on this site, you are missing out. This is run by a midwife who teaches better, easier births through proper fetal positioning. I did the daily excersises for the last month of Charlie's pregnancy... and let me tell you, it was the best birth. I tell everyone I know about this site. Balance and alignment of your pelvis is very easy possible and an ENORMOUS help!

Spinning Babies!! If you haven’t been on this site, you are missing out. This is run by a midwife who teaches better, easier births through proper fetal positioning. I did the daily excersises for the last month of Charlie’s pregnancy… and let me tell you, it was the best birth! (seriously!) I tell everyone I know about this site. Balance and alignment of your pelvis is very easy & possible and an ENORMOUS help during birth.

A thanks to Ellen over at McSisters for opening my eyes to the glory that is coconut water, ahem that is DARK CHOCOLATE coconut water. This too, really helps with the muscle spasms and cramping.... it's chock loaded with almost 400mg of Potassium. Not bad for a sweet tooth fix!

A thanks to Ellen over at McSisters for opening my eyes to the glory that is coconut water, ahem that is DARK CHOCOLATE coconut water. This too, really helps with the muscle spasms and cramping…. it’s chock loaded with almost 400mg of Potassium. Not bad for a sweet tooth fix!

This dress is on clearance at Motherhood.com.  I have this dress (correction. Tom sent me this dress in the mail because he 'was going to send flowers, but flowers die and this was the same price' major win. Tom, send me dresses instead of flowers anyyytime you want!) I absolutely love it. I feel so swishy and, well, yes sexy in it.  At this phase in pregnancy, you gotta have a dress like this in your closet . A true self-esteem booster! Get it and then demand to be taken out for ice cream. You deserve it!

This dress is on clearance at Motherhood.com. I  got this dress (correction. Tom sent me this dress in the mail because he ‘was going to send flowers, but flowers die and this was the same price’ major win. Tom, send me dresses instead of flowers anyyytime you want!) I absolutely love it. I feel so swishy and, well, yes sexy in it. At this phase in pregnancy, you gotta have a dress like this in your closet . A true self-esteem booster! Get it and then demand to be taken out for ice cream. You deserve it!

If you don't go out for ice cream, then please stock your freezer with this. Um, this is literally the best tasting cookie dough ice cream ever. Unless cookie dough isn't your thing.... (ok weirdo...why don't you just go eat an apple instead then.) I have this, and hot fudge, whipped cream and of course WAFFLE BOWLS all ready to grab  at a seconds notice... hey. This is a pregnancy post may I  remind you, don't tell me you didn't expect ice cream to make the list!

If you don’t go out for ice cream, then please stock your freezer with this. Um, this is literally the best tasting cookie dough ice cream ever. Unless cookie dough isn’t your thing…. (ok weirdo…why don’t you just go eat an apple instead then.)
I have this, and hot fudge, whipped cream and of course WAFFLE BOWLS all ready to grab at a seconds notice… hey. This is a pregnancy post  don’t tell me you didn’t expect ice cream to make the list!

What are your pregnancy must haves? What’s been the best thing you’ve got to get through the aches and pains… and cravings?